The numerology course was actually something that I thought I was doing as a child. I would take numbers and combine them down to the smallest amount that I could, and did not know what else to do with, and upon seeing this course I saw a resemblance, so I wanted to take it and see. When I also did my side studies, I found something called Gematria, which allows you to take the Hebrew letters and apply numerical values that arrive at a point of Biblical information, and this too seems similar, but what is the difference?

The difference I am going to talk about is what Numerology is and God, Gematria was just a cool side note. So when I took this course, I was hoping to get the answers for my childhood interest, but what I really found was a little bit of sadness. This course actually taught me how to break down letters and numbers with value, that hold information based on one’s life or soul, to provide insight (Gematria normally just arrives at a God point). This course was very easy to understand, a chart that has all the letters in the alphabet placed one row on top of the other, and then depending what you are looking for soul information or life, you take the numbers/abc’s involved, and you come up with a result. After this, you provide it to yourself or another in hopes that get what they need or what they want.

For me, I found that this is not the best because, like the zodiac, you get information, and you either believe it, or leave more confused than before. This is another means to understand without God, and place it upon yourself, and do it with your own personal end means. As stated in another “Why Not” Series post, kicking God out, and doing it upon yourself, is not a light filled way. What I came to from this course, is that based on my name, I was going to have a repeat of my childhood. If you have not read any of my books (shop now) you will miss out on a lot of details, but divorce, acceptance, value, and love were some points of pain, so to hear I would have to live through it again was not a good thing. The worst part was that when things did not start to go my way, or I began to see the cycles in my life from my childhood, I began to believe more in what the chart had told me than what God said, and had proved He could do.

I eventually had to start addressing it each time that I saw my childhood occurring, and one thing I will say is that this may be the only place where dark and light overlap because in healing you too need to address a trigger, but the end makes all the difference- are you addressing and sinking deep or rising above? I decided to rise above realizing how the past affected/effected me, and finding new ways to approach them for the future. If you just stick with believing in the chart, you will get stuck in a cycle because it does not provide a means out, just a statement of “what is” based on it. God has His own chart for your life, so believing in a Numerology chart is disbelief that your life can change overall- good or bad.