The emotions swirl about my head, the tears well as I try to hold it all in. I am drowning, I am scared, and I am lost.

I feel the solutions, but none seem to help the deep cut of my pain, and the agony I cry to silently everyday.

Why? Why am I the one who God let fall, who He has left, who He allowed this to happen to? Am I not good enough for a life of happiness? I am one of His children right?

My head swirls. I am losing who am I. I see the old me swirling down my whirlpool of dispair that I have to call my life. There sits my aid, soother, amd jader of life. Smoothly its poison slips down my throat, and the tingle of omission harmonizes my soul.

The music hits my ears, and I begin to embody it, hoping I can fly away on a note. I am in the moment, not the ones I run from, but the one I long for daily. How can I not return to this solutions repeatedly?

Now they are closing what to do but go home & I drove. Keys in hand, the notes of the music still guiding my stumbling side steps, and I hear the engine cry. We are ready, locked and loaded, smiles overpowering emotions, and the air ready for me to fly. I start, and my eyes go black.

Thr light hits me, I come to, where am I? I look down, the screen headlines “DUI Driver Killed” and below, “DUI Driver Kills”. I realize my life flashed before my eyes as the reflection of my life came to me in a divine message. It was not me, but another; they had the same story, feelings, and desires, but not the result.

Your results can be different, my results were. I was blessed enough to have a good life, I had to see it. I had to realize the lesson is what God was repeating, it was never punishment. It was me He sought, and I had to answer because His universal plan eternally included me. You are this important, you just need a guide…my story is yours…my eyes yours, and the reflection of the DUI is the lesson to unfold.

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